“i get to watch people fall in love. it still makes me cry. even after documenting 400+ weddings. sometimes, as i get lost in the beautiful faces i photograph, i find myself imagining where their journeys will take them.
life rarely turns out the way we expect it to. that’s really the only guarantee we have. i guess it’s also a part of the magic. things grow, things break, things change, things disappear, all so unexpectedly. then the cycle begins again. all we can do is our best to maintain a sense of grace through it all, holding on to a determination to stay open
going through the divorce process has challenged me in ways i never would have expected. the tough questions that don’t seem to have right answers, the heavy complications of untangling lives, living & sleeping alone, the pressures of making a living alone, single parenthood, flying across country trying to contain two wild boys. hardest of all – having to come to terms with missing out on precious days of their little lives. as a mama human, it seems impossible to me that i should ever have to be away from them for any reason. i hold them for long moments on the days they have to leave.
but along with the many trials have come equally unexpected gifts. with some love & support from my kick-ass friends & family, i find myself stronger & braver than I have ever been. i’m surprising myself.
i’ve gained an incredible respect for those who’ve had to go through this & a patience for those that don’t understand. i Iost a lot of my own judgments along the way & have nothing but compassion left. i didn’t fully understand how complex a divorce can be – it’s hard work to fall apart. i do my best now to give people the benefit of the doubt – that we’re all doing the best we know how.
tonight, i am completely grateful. not so bewildered. with closure in my heart, i’m filled with a quiet optimism for the next chapter. i’m open & ready… ”